Soliloqui

[From: Reverie]

I really shouldn’t be updating every day. I’ve been doing that for the past week or something. Quality not quantity, right? But no, I just can’t hold myself back. MUST. BLOG. The beginnings of some quirky addiction?

For some reason, I’m not really as happy as I should be, with Christmas just around the corner. My holiday spirit is completely faltering. I suppose academic tyranny could be a reason, along with some other things. I haven’t bought presents for anyone. I don’t have the time/resources/motivation/drive/etc. And oh yeah, I don’t have money. Maybe I’ll get presents for people by February. Better late than never Holidays seem to pass by me like nothing now. I used to love holidays. I’m so blah these days. I love Christmas! Why aren’t I showing it? Why aren’t I feeling it? Maybe if I finish AP homework I will feel happier. But I doubt it. I guess I need to download some Christmas songs and hug the Christmas tree (my tradition).

I eat too much lately. I just use food to break the boredom. Pretty soon I’ll need all new, bigger pants. Like baggy sweatpants or something. I like my jeans Maybe I just need to get off my lazy ass and stop frickin going on the internet. It’s like this: nowhere to surf, but I just keep clicking links and before I know it, it’s one in the morning.

Electric guitar is fun.

Christine @ 05:03:34 PM

[From: Reverie]

I really envy happy people. To be happy in this world is just so phenomenal to me. Sickness, death, hopelessness, hatred. I’ve been too sheltered. I wish I was more immune to it all.

On Friday, Steph and Angela came over for some friendly battlage in Soul Calibur II. We all go crazy when it comes to fighting haha. Angela and I DDRed a bit; couldn’t get Steph to stop playing violin. Watched the movie Better Luck Tomorrow. It’s a movie about these high school asian guys who start getting involved in dealing drugs and shit. It just evolves into worse stuff. Basically, it shows a lot about asian-american high school life. I was freaked out by it. Too real. I hate movies that are too real. Leaves me with goosebumps :O

Cheesecake Factory for late birthday dinner. So stuffed! So expensive! Very good though.

I am really worried about school. not enough extracurricular stuff, messing up math, messing up research. I need more motivation. I need to go to sleeppppppp…

Christine @ 10:36:34 PM.

[From: Reverie]

I am the epitome of stupidity. They kept dropping hints to go to my locker, and I just don’t get it xD Turns out it was decorated with all the presents inside :O All in all, great birthday. Besides the fact that I seriously think I failed a math test, it was all good. My parents got me an electric guitar so now all I need to do is learn how to play it haha. Got down Boulevard of Broken Dreams and the beginning of Stairway to Heaven.
I ate a lot today. Chocolates from Angela, lollipop from Jon, CAKE. Feeling happy in all my bloatedness.
I’m writing a new story now, tentatively entitled “Bubble Tea”. I’m intending it to be a cute, s+s tsubasa fanfiction. Maybe. I don’t like writing “Dimension” anymore.

More Presents
-TRC vol. 3 – sis
-Necklace, bracelet, chocolate – Angela
-Jar of stars, lollipop – Jon
-Pencil case, pens, notebook – Lois
-Cute letter – Michelle
-Notes – Jess, Vickster, Michy, Steph, Souv, Ben, Angie

Many thanks!

It’s fun to be loved.

Christine @ 11:55:40 PM.