Soliloqui

…I forgot what I was going to say. I am too obsessed with finding the right words to explain my sentiments. I either fail miserably amidst a sea of convoluted fragments or give up trying to find the right words altogether. So let’s see…what strange revelations did I reach today? I seriously cannot remember. Some thoughts:

1. I should stop overthinking everything. I don’t even live in action anymore. I live in some odd world where everything garners some sort of mental reaction from me, and I rehash thoughts over and over in my mind until I think I’m some sort of great philosopher. Which I’m not, which goes without saying. So I don’t know why I even said that.
2. Everything happens for a reason. I say this a million times, and it’s probably the most banal and hackneyed phrase in the history of consolation. But my God it’s true and life keeps proving it to me. Or maybe I’m just connecting events together that have nothing to do with each other to make myself feel better.
3. I’m not meant to see the whole path in front of me. I should stop thinking I know everything. And it’s not like I have some sort of holier-than-thou attitude. It’s just an implication that everything is as it is and life will progress normally as it always have, with planned changes and so on.
4. People live life with blinders on. As far as I have perceived, at least. And I guess it’s okay to some extent. We don’t have the capacity to take in everything that goes on in the world. But still, too much is overlooked. Details are glazed over. We don’t even think we’re selfish but we are. We’re just too selfish to realize though, at those moments.

Okay I know I sound like I’m in desperate need of an insane asylum. To be honest, I think I’m pretty normal. Maybe a bit on the vain side. I also have an inferiority complex, which is odd because I think I’m vain. Well, since nothing is just black or just white, this should be acceptable. I’m trying very hard to make myself sound normal but I guess I come off weird in writing.

If you’re searching for the real, shallowly-blogs-about-everyday-life me, refer to previous posts.