Zhu Fu Ni Yong Yuan Kuai Le…
November 14th, 2007 at 6:05 pm (Thought)
The great tragedy of Science - the slaying of a beautiful hypothesis by an ugly fact.
I’m afraid to be happy.
This is a stupid, ungrateful philosophy to be subscribing to. Alas, it’s the truth.
I mean, to some point I crave happiness. Who doesn’t? Happiness is a goal, a religion, a state of being. But once I reach a certain stage of ebullience, I fear it.
1. I believe that life is balanced. If something good happens, something bad is sure to follow. Equilibrium must be established.
2. Happiness has to end some time.
But then, this sort of goes along with the saying, “Better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all.” Which, I guess is true. Take the rain with the rainbows, I suppose? Better to have been happy and sad than never happy at all? Why does mediocrity seem so tempting sometimes? Maybe because, of course, there’s that other saying, “No news is good news.”
As a side note, there’s a reason I equally fear relationships. Relationships also have to end.
And even if they don’t, they interfere with other platonic relationships i.e. friendships. Spending too much time with one person…surely the cons outweigh the pros? Maybe I’m just not good at balancing all these elements in my life. Or just bad at all prosocial behaviors known to man.
As many people have told me, I’m going to grow up and be old, alone, save for a few dozen stray cats, and be called “that crazy cat lady/madwoman”.
I’m allergic to cats. Which just makes the scenario all the more bizarre.
Z said,
November 18, 2007 at 12:15 pm
Aristotle would frown upon you because happiness is the highest good
At least I think it was him. I should know this, I have a midterm tomorrow which I should be studying for right now.
I don’t know if I really believe in a whole balance thing. But in any case, sometimes I look back at unhappy times and either (a) learn from it or (b) find happiness in knowing that I’ve gotten past that whole thing. Bad times in life break and shake you, and I think it just makes you stronger as a whole. In that way they’re kind of good too. For example if I fail my ethics test tomorrow I’ll remember next time not to comment you on the eve of an exam.
relationships… i guess you can learn from past ones too. Yet maybe it’s bad to go in with that whole attitude, and you should just go in with all bets on the fact that it’s going to last. Some might think that’s foolish though. I really don’t know haha.
oh well I guess that’s it for you then isn’t it ;P
Rabbits are always an alternative. I like them better. jk haha, hope to see you thanksgiving.
GT said,
November 19, 2007 at 3:09 pm
I am intrigued by your “life is balanced” idea. I feel that life is unfair in the sense that those “happier” people are not given “happier” situations all the time but rather their ways of coping with all situations and their attitudes allowed them to look at life as a one continuing upslope rather than bunch of ups and downs.
Does happiness have to end? I am not sure. But I think if you look at the end of one happiness could be the beginning of another one, maybe life could be a lot easier.
As with relationships, maybe going along with your “balance” idea, you need some of that non-platonic part of your life? Heh, a good significant others would not have you give up your other relationships, he will understand that’s part of you in that.
Does mediocrity ensure fear alsor? Maybe it brings fear of boredom and emptiness.
I hope you feel ….. happier! haha.. let’s have coffee sometimes and chat, I think I would enjoy that.
Gary