Soliloqui

And I don’t want the world to see me
‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I wanted to write about something a few days ago, but I forgot what. I remember I had a lot to say about it though. What a shame.

It’s hard for me to contemplate or let my mind wander freely on the off-chance that I might remember my mind’s fleeting blog topics. The reason? I have a fucking paper due on Friday. On a 300 page book I haven’t read. Yet.

Yeah.

Oh. I actually remembered what I wanted to write about. But I’ll save that for next time. This was a shit entry posted so I could copy and paste the beautiful chorus of “Iris” by the Goo Goo Dolls. I think it holds some relevance to events in my life right now.

Sorry for wasting your time. Hah.

Oh. Again. Even though I got soaked in the rain today, I still think rain is romantic. I don’t know why I (and many other people) think that. I really don’t get it. What is the appeal of rain? I guess the word is pretty. It’s wet. Why am I thinking about this? Because I just read the lyrics to “She’s My Kind of Rain” by Tim McGraw and it’s just beautiful.

She’s my kind of rain
Like love from a drunken sky
Confetti falling down all night
She’s my kind of rain

She’s the sunset’s shadow
She’s like Rembrandt’s light
She’s the history that’s made at night
She’s my lost companion
She’s my dreamin’ tree
Together in this brief eternity

I’m sorry my friends, but even the cynic of all cynics cannot deny that this is the kind of love we all want.

Speaking of country music, I told my dad (the britpop/alternative/rock enthusiast) that I was kind of into country music now. He says I’ve spent too much time in Ithaca. I said I don’t listen to the radio here anyway, because I don’t have one. Don’t know why I listen to country music now. I guess because it’s romantic and simple, not convoluted or pseudo-deep like some of pop/rock these days.
Oh my, it’s Christine Lee, the fob wannabe country music fanatic. I’m a walking oxymoron.

This was a weird, disjointed entry. Y’all know I’m only trying to avoid the 284 page wrath of “Among Empires: American Ascendancy and Its Predecessors”.

my first taste of love
bittersweet
green on the vine
like strawberry wine

R.I.P. F.I.R. Seriously. F.I.R.’s debut album was brilliant. Sophomore album wasn’t as good as the first but still had a few great songs like “Wuxian”, “Qiannian Zhi Lian”, “Ba Ai Fang Kai”, and “Ci Niao”. By the release of the third album this year, I can see that it’s downhill from here. They have run out of songs. The only songs I somewhat like are “Feixing Buluo”, “Yu Yinghua”, and to a lesser extent, “I Don’t Care”. If I compared this album to other Chinese pop albums coming out simultaneously, I would say that it’s not bad. But this is F.I.R. we’re talking about. I always held them in a higher regard than the others. Now they have sunk to the boring slow song level of those other dime-a-dozen artists who can hardly hold a note. Why did they let the guitarist Real write so many songs? He writes drab ballads and completely butchers LeAnn Rimes’ “How Do I Live”. Ian is basically the mastermind behind F.I.R. and now he’s too busy with his other projects to care about the group that propelled him to fame. The only song that resembles the F.I.R. I know and love is “Feixing Buluo”, which doesn’t even come close to their previous hits.

we’re here where the daylight begins
the fog on the streetlight slowly thins
water on water’s the way
the safety of shoreline fading away

sail your sea
meet your storm
all I want is to be your harbor
the light in me
will guide you home
all I want is to be your harbor

fear is the brightest of signs
the shape of the boundary you leave behind
so sing all your questions to sleep
the answers are out there in the drowning deep

you’ve got a journey to make
there’s your horizon to chase
so go far beyond where we stand
no matter the distance
I’m holding your hand

Her music is very beautiful. It is simple and soothing while being emotionally riveting as well. I love the simple piano accompaniment and her voice. She may not have the best singing voice, but her imperfections just make it seem more authentic.